Well It's Been A While

I guess my enthusiasm for blogging didn't last long, or rather starting clinics left me with no time for such things as this.

Too much has happened in the past 8 months to try to write it all down. Clinics have gone by in a blur. Just when I get comfortable in one rotation it's time to switch to the next. Gotta keep us on our toes I guess. I take boards very soon...December 8th to be exact. My focus for studying has been slipping. Since starting clinics, I really have no idea how I used to study for at least 8 hours on end almost every day. I just can't do it anymore. My brain starts to hurt and I get major ADD. So studying for boards hasn't been the most successful...Here's to hoping I just pass them.

In a week from now I'll be going to Panama, which I'm rather excited for. I've never been outside the country before. Stine (my roommate) and I are going for an externship with a spay/neuter program they have down there. Pretty excited to brush up on my spaying and neutering skills. They need a brush up.

My boyfriend should hopefully be coming home in 2 months or so. I'll gladly take a month early redeployment. I scheduled an externship last May though that starts January 8th, which is right around the time he might be coming back. I'm really praying that he'll be back before I start this externship. I can't express how heartbroken I will be if I don't get to be at his redeployment ceremony. So I'm just trying not to think about the "what if" of that happening and just praying that it won't be the case.

The past month of so of deployment has been the hardest. I kept hearing others say 8 months in is the worst part and now I understand why. Month 8 really did suck the most, and it wasn't even anything in particular really. I just no longer remember what it's like to have him here...to be able to drive over to his apartment and lay on the couch with him while watching 30 Rock. Or having the comfort of him sleeping next to me. Or getting breakfast on the weekends. I honestly don't remember what that feels like anymore, and I think that's what has been the hardest part. I keep telling myself only 2 more months...but those 2 months feel like an eternity once you've gotten this far. I'm hoping with the holidays coming up time will go by faster but I also know Christmas is going to make me miss him that much more and wish he were here for it...In conclusions: deployments suck.

So that's pretty much my update. I could write about a lot more but my attention span is waning. Til next time.