Waiting

So I told myself I wouldn't start one of these but here I am. I've been feeling somewhat helpless lately with a lot of things going on, so I thought maybe this would help. It seems like I'm doing a lot of waiting lately. This week I'm waiting for these next two exams to be done so I can receive my white coat on Friday, which apparently is a big deal in vet school. For me, I don't think it's quite sunk in yet that after this month, I will never again be sitting in a classroom taking notes on my laptop on a daily basis. In a short month I will be in clinics, praying that the last 3 years I've spent holed up in my room studying every night has paid off enough for me to at least not accidentally kill anything. I can only hope. So I'm waiting for this month to be over, and for panic to set in.

Right now I'm waiting for my boyfriend, who is currently deployed in Afghanistan, to get online. Or at least hoping that he will, but it's looking like I won't be so lucky today. For the next year while he's away I'm going to be doing a lot of waiting. Waiting for his R&R. Waiting to see him and hug him again. Waiting to confirm he's still real. And waiting for him to come home for good. So right now I seem to be waiting for the next stage of my life to occur. Just waiting.